“I've loved you from the first time i saw you. I think i was twelve. It took me 3 years to pluck up the courage to speak to you. And i was so scared of the way i felt, you know, loving a girl. But i learned how to become a sarcastic bitch just to make it feel normal. I screwed guys to make it go away but it didn't work. When we got together it scared the shit out of me because you were the one person who could ruin my life. I pushed you away [...] but really i was just terrified of pain. I screwed that girl sophia to kind of spite you for having that hold on me. And i'm a total fucking cow because i got these, these tickets to go away for us 3 months ago. But i couldn't stand - I didn't want to be a slave to the way i feel about you. Can you understand ? You've been trying to punish me back and it's horrible, it's so horrible. Because really, I'd die for you. I love you. I love you so much and it's killing me.”

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